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Tuning: CGDGCD Written in: Boone, NC 2004

Written on January 1, 2004 with my good friend Tommy Brown, this song started out as a struggle to find one's vocation. It turned into a music theater piece in search of a musical as well as an homage to Cat Stevens' "Father & Son".

“I don’t know where I’m going,” I’ve heard him say too many times
All his wandering, dreaming yet not sowing - that boy just can’t make up his mind
Everything he puts his hand to he is good at
But ‘round here he’s as useless as the Dow
If he’s not here just who does this farm go to?
Hell, I can’t just leave it to the cows.

My heart keeps beating in the dark even though I don’t know how
This line has run for years unbroken - we took it up back then somehow
So what do I do now?

“I don’t know where I’m going” - he’s heard me say so many times
How to work this row I’m hoeing or just which one is mine
I’ve befriended all the questions I’ve encountered
I’ve encountered all the friends who’ve questioned me
And even though at times it seems I floundered
There were answers in the things I could not see

My heart keeps beating in the dark even though I don’t know how
There’re lines upon the pages I’ve written. Even more behind the plough
So what do I do now?

Here is home (Here I’m home) -- There I’ve grown (There he’s gone)
Seeds I’ve sown (Ways unknown) -- What do I do now?

I don’t know where this is going I have to say just one more time
But for me this is all about growing - as you might say it’s time to train this vine.
Oh, I know you want an answer to your question
Will I be here to help you carry on?
I gotta say the sunsets ‘round here are the best ones
They’re what I miss the most when I am gone

Hearts keep beating in the dark even though we don’t know how
Could it be this line you’re so afraid I’m breaking
Wants to bend a different way somehow?
Trust what I do now

Here is home (Here I’m home) -- There I’ve grown (There he’s gone)
Seeds I’ve sown (Ways unknown) -- What do I do now?